Last night, I had another adoption training class. Since I'm planning to adopt a child out of the foster care system, I'm required to sit through 8 state run classes. The topics of the classes are all focused on reasons why children end up in state care, so foster and adoptive parents will be better equipped to care for these children.
Last nights class was on sexual abuse. Sitting through that class was about as fun as it sounds. Just thinking about sexual abuse gives me a creepy crawly feeling inside. A three hour lecture on the subject was overwhelming.
The thing that bothers me so much is that this is real. Kids are actually hurt. Monsters do exist. It boggles my mind that there are people who do this. But not wanting to believe it, doesn't make the problem disappear.
Children are abused, sexually. There's a very real chance my future child will have gone through this. So I have to face it. But I still want to throw-up.